The door was as before opened a tiny crack, and again two sharp and

suspicious eyes stared at him out of the darkness. Then Raskolnikov lost

his head and nearly made a great mistake.



Fearing the old woman would be frightened by their being alone, and not

hoping that the sight of him would disarm her suspicions, he took

hold of the door and drew it towards him to prevent the old woman from

attempting to shut it again. Seeing this she did not pull the door back,

but she did not let go the handle so that he almost dragged her out with

it on to the stairs. Seeing that she was standing in the doorway not

allowing him to pass, he advanced straight upon her. She stepped back

in alarm, tried to say something, but seemed unable to speak and stared

with open eyes at him.



“Good evening, Alyona Ivanovna,” he began, trying to speak easily, but

his voice would not obey him, it broke and shook. “I have come... I have

brought something... but we’d better come in... to the light....”



And leaving her, he passed straight into the room uninvited. The old

woman ran after him; her tongue was unloosed.



“Good heavens! What it is? Who is it? What do you want?”



“Why, Alyona Ivanovna, you know me... Raskolnikov... here, I brought you

the pledge I promised the other day...” And he held out the pledge.



The old woman glanced for a moment at the pledge, but at once stared in

the eyes of her uninvited visitor. She looked intently, maliciously and

mistrustfully. A minute passed; he even fancied something like a sneer

in her eyes, as though she had already guessed everything. He felt that

he was losing his head, that he was almost frightened, so frightened

that if she were to look like that and not say a word for another half

minute, he thought he would have run away from her.



“Why do you look at me as though you did not know me?” he said suddenly,

also with malice. “Take it if you like, if not I’ll go elsewhere, I am

in a hurry.”



He had not even thought of saying this, but it was suddenly said of

itself. The old woman recovered herself, and her visitor’s resolute tone

evidently restored her confidence.



“But why, my good sir, all of a minute.... What is it?” she asked,

looking at the pledge.



“The silver cigarette case; I spoke of it last time, you know.”



She held out her hand.



“But how pale you are, to be sure... and your hands are trembling too?

Have you been bathing, or what?”



“Fever,” he answered abruptly. “You can’t help getting pale... if you’ve

nothing to eat,” he added, with difficulty articulating the words.



His strength was failing him again. But his answer sounded like the

truth; the old woman took the pledge.



“What is it?” she asked once more, scanning Raskolnikov intently, and

weighing the pledge in her hand.



“A thing... cigarette case.... Silver.... Look at it.”



“It does not seem somehow like silver.... How he has wrapped it up!”



Trying to untie the string and turning to the window, to the light (all

her windows were shut, in spite of the stifling heat), she left

him altogether for some seconds and stood with her back to him. He

unbuttoned his coat and freed the axe from the noose, but did not yet

take it out altogether, simply holding it in his right hand under the

coat. His hands were fearfully weak, he felt them every moment growing

more numb and more wooden. He was afraid he would let the axe slip and

fall.... A sudden giddiness came over him.



“But what has he tied it up like this for?” the old woman cried with

vexation and moved towards him.



He had not a minute more to lose. He pulled the axe quite out, swung

it with both arms, scarcely conscious of himself, and almost without

effort, almost mechanically, brought the blunt side down on her head. He

seemed not to use his own strength in this. But as soon as he had once

brought the axe down, his strength returned to him.



The old woman was as always bareheaded. Her thin, light hair, streaked

with grey, thickly smeared with grease, was plaited in a rat’s tail and

fastened by a broken horn comb which stood out on the nape of her neck.

As she was so short, the blow fell on the very top of her skull. She

cried out, but very faintly, and suddenly sank all of a heap on the

floor, raising her hands to her head. In one hand she still held “the

pledge.” Then he dealt her another and another blow with the blunt side

and on the same spot. The blood gushed as from an overturned glass, the

body fell back. He stepped back, let it fall, and at once bent over her

face; she was dead. Her eyes seemed to be starting out of their sockets,

the brow and the whole face were drawn and contorted convulsively.



He laid the axe on the ground near the dead body and felt at once in her

pocket (trying to avoid the streaming body)--the same right-hand pocket

from which she had taken the key on his last visit. He was in full

possession of his faculties, free from confusion or giddiness, but his

hands were still trembling. He remembered afterwards that he had been

particularly collected and careful, trying all the time not to get

smeared with blood.... He pulled out the keys at once, they were all,

as before, in one bunch on a steel ring. He ran at once into the bedroom

with them. It was a very small room with a whole shrine of holy images.

Against the other wall stood a big bed, very clean and covered with

a silk patchwork wadded quilt. Against a third wall was a chest of

drawers. Strange to say, so soon as he began to fit the keys into the

chest, so soon as he heard their jingling, a convulsive shudder passed

over him. He suddenly felt tempted again to give it all up and go

away. But that was only for an instant; it was too late to go back.

He positively smiled at himself, when suddenly another terrifying idea

occurred to his mind. He suddenly fancied that the old woman might be

still alive and might recover her senses. Leaving the keys in the chest,

he ran back to the body, snatched up the axe and lifted it once more

over the old woman, but did not bring it down. There was no doubt that

she was dead. Bending down and examining her again more closely, he saw

clearly that the skull was broken and even battered in on one side. He

was about to feel it with his finger, but drew back his hand and indeed

it was evident without that. Meanwhile there was a perfect pool of

blood. All at once he noticed a string on her neck; he tugged at it, but

the string was strong and did not snap and besides, it was soaked

with blood. He tried to pull it out from the front of the dress, but

something held it and prevented its coming. In his impatience he raised

the axe again to cut the string from above on the body, but did not

dare, and with difficulty, smearing his hand and the axe in the blood,

after two minutes’ hurried effort, he cut the string and took it off

without touching the body with the axe; he was not mistaken--it was a

purse. On the string were two crosses, one of Cyprus wood and one of

copper, and an image in silver filigree, and with them a small greasy

chamois leather purse with a steel rim and ring. The purse was stuffed

very full; Raskolnikov thrust it in his pocket without looking at it,

flung the crosses on the old woman’s body and rushed back into the

bedroom, this time taking the axe with him.



He was in terrible haste, he snatched the keys, and began trying them

again. But he was unsuccessful. They would not fit in the locks. It

was not so much that his hands were shaking, but that he kept making

mistakes; though he saw for instance that a key was not the right one

and would not fit, still he tried to put it in. Suddenly he remembered

and realised that the big key with the deep notches, which was hanging

there with the small keys could not possibly belong to the chest of

drawers (on his last visit this had struck him), but to some strong box,

and that everything perhaps was hidden in that box. He left the chest

of drawers, and at once felt under the bedstead, knowing that old

women usually keep boxes under their beds. And so it was; there was a

good-sized box under the bed, at least a yard in length, with an arched

lid covered with red leather and studded with steel nails. The notched

key fitted at once and unlocked it. At the top, under a white sheet, was

a coat of red brocade lined with hareskin; under it was a silk dress,

then a shawl and it seemed as though there was nothing below but

clothes. The first thing he did was to wipe his blood-stained hands on

the red brocade. “It’s red, and on red blood will be less noticeable,”

 the thought passed through his mind; then he suddenly came to himself.

“Good God, am I going out of my senses?” he thought with terror.



But no sooner did he touch the clothes than a gold watch slipped from

under the fur coat. He made haste to turn them all over. There turned

out to be various articles made of gold among the clothes--probably

all pledges, unredeemed or waiting to be redeemed--bracelets, chains,

ear-rings, pins and such things. Some were in cases, others simply

wrapped in newspaper, carefully and exactly folded, and tied round with

tape. Without any delay, he began filling up the pockets of his trousers

and overcoat without examining or undoing the parcels and cases; but he

had not time to take many....



He suddenly heard steps in the room where the old woman lay. He stopped

short and was still as death. But all was quiet, so it must have been

his fancy. All at once he heard distinctly a faint cry, as though

someone had uttered a low broken moan. Then again dead silence for

a minute or two. He sat squatting on his heels by the box and waited

holding his breath. Suddenly he jumped up, seized the axe and ran out of

the bedroom.



In the middle of the room stood Lizaveta with a big bundle in her arms.

She was gazing in stupefaction at her murdered sister, white as a sheet

and seeming not to have the strength to cry out. Seeing him run out

of the bedroom, she began faintly quivering all over, like a leaf, a

shudder ran down her face; she lifted her hand, opened her mouth, but

still did not scream. She began slowly backing away from him into the

corner, staring intently, persistently at him, but still uttered no

sound, as though she could not get breath to scream. He rushed at her

with the axe; her mouth twitched piteously, as one sees babies’ mouths,

when they begin to be frightened, stare intently at what frightens them

and are on the point of screaming. And this hapless Lizaveta was so

simple and had been so thoroughly crushed and scared that she did not

even raise a hand to guard her face, though that was the most necessary

and natural action at the moment, for the axe was raised over her face.

She only put up her empty left hand, but not to her face, slowly holding

it out before her as though motioning him away. The axe fell with the

sharp edge just on the skull and split at one blow all the top of the

head. She fell heavily at once. Raskolnikov completely lost his head,

snatching up her bundle, dropped it again and ran into the entry.



Fear gained more and more mastery over him, especially after this

second, quite unexpected murder. He longed to run away from the place

as fast as possible. And if at that moment he had been capable of seeing

and reasoning more correctly, if he had been able to realise all the

difficulties of his position, the hopelessness, the hideousness and the

absurdity of it, if he could have understood how many obstacles and,

perhaps, crimes he had still to overcome or to commit, to get out of

that place and to make his way home, it is very possible that he would

have flung up everything, and would have gone to give himself up, and

not from fear, but from simple horror and loathing of what he had

done. The feeling of loathing especially surged up within him and grew

stronger every minute. He would not now have gone to the box or even

into the room for anything in the world.



But a sort of blankness, even dreaminess, had begun by degrees to take

possession of him; at moments he forgot himself, or rather, forgot what

was of importance, and caught at trifles. Glancing, however, into the

kitchen and seeing a bucket half full of water on a bench, he bethought

him of washing his hands and the axe. His hands were sticky with blood.

He dropped the axe with the blade in the water, snatched a piece of soap

that lay in a broken saucer on the window, and began washing his hands

in the bucket. When they were clean, he took out the axe, washed the

blade and spent a long time, about three minutes, washing the wood where

there were spots of blood rubbing them with soap. Then he wiped it all

with some linen that was hanging to dry on a line in the kitchen and

then he was a long while attentively examining the axe at the window.

There was no trace left on it, only the wood was still damp. He

carefully hung the axe in the noose under his coat. Then as far as was

possible, in the dim light in the kitchen, he looked over his overcoat,

his trousers and his boots. At the first glance there seemed to be

nothing but stains on the boots. He wetted the rag and rubbed the boots.

But he knew he was not looking thoroughly, that there might be something

quite noticeable that he was overlooking. He stood in the middle of the

room, lost in thought. Dark agonising ideas rose in his mind--the idea

that he was mad and that at that moment he was incapable of reasoning,

of protecting himself, that he ought perhaps to be doing something

utterly different from what he was now doing. “Good God!” he muttered,

“I must fly, fly,” and he rushed into the entry. But here a shock of

terror awaited him such as he had never known before.



He stood and gazed and could not believe his eyes: the door, the outer

door from the stairs, at which he had not long before waited and rung,

was standing unfastened and at least six inches open. No lock, no bolt,

all the time, all that time! The old woman had not shut it after him

perhaps as a precaution. But, good God! Why, he had seen Lizaveta

afterwards! And how could he, how could he have failed to reflect that

she must have come in somehow! She could not have come through the wall!



He dashed to the door and fastened the latch.



“But no, the wrong thing again! I must get away, get away....”



He unfastened the latch, opened the door and began listening on the

staircase.



He listened a long time. Somewhere far away, it might be in the gateway,

two voices were loudly and shrilly shouting, quarrelling and scolding.

“What are they about?” He waited patiently. At last all was still, as

though suddenly cut off; they had separated. He was meaning to go out,

but suddenly, on the floor below, a door was noisily opened and someone

began going downstairs humming a tune. “How is it they all make such

a noise?” flashed through his mind. Once more he closed the door and

waited. At last all was still, not a soul stirring. He was just taking a

step towards the stairs when he heard fresh footsteps.



The steps sounded very far off, at the very bottom of the stairs, but

he remembered quite clearly and distinctly that from the first sound he

began for some reason to suspect that this was someone coming _there_,

to the fourth floor, to the old woman. Why? Were the sounds somehow

peculiar, significant? The steps were heavy, even and unhurried. Now

_he_ had passed the first floor, now he was mounting higher, it was

growing more and more distinct! He could hear his heavy breathing. And

now the third storey had been reached. Coming here! And it seemed to

him all at once that he was turned to stone, that it was like a dream

in which one is being pursued, nearly caught and will be killed, and is

rooted to the spot and cannot even move one’s arms.



At last when the unknown was mounting to the fourth floor, he suddenly

started, and succeeded in slipping neatly and quickly back into the

flat and closing the door behind him. Then he took the hook and softly,

noiselessly, fixed it in the catch. Instinct helped him. When he had

done this, he crouched holding his breath, by the door. The unknown

visitor was by now also at the door. They were now standing opposite one

another, as he had just before been standing with the old woman, when

the door divided them and he was listening.



The visitor panted several times. “He must be a big, fat man,” thought

Raskolnikov, squeezing the axe in his hand. It seemed like a dream

indeed. The visitor took hold of the bell and rang it loudly.



As soon as the tin bell tinkled, Raskolnikov seemed to be aware of

something moving in the room. For some seconds he listened quite

seriously. The unknown rang again, waited and suddenly tugged violently

and impatiently at the handle of the door. Raskolnikov gazed in horror

at the hook shaking in its fastening, and in blank terror expected every

minute that the fastening would be pulled out. It certainly did seem

possible, so violently was he shaking it. He was tempted to hold the

fastening, but _he_ might be aware of it. A giddiness came over him

again. “I shall fall down!” flashed through his mind, but the unknown

began to speak and he recovered himself at once.



“What’s up? Are they asleep or murdered? D-damn them!” he bawled in a

thick voice, “Hey, Alyona Ivanovna, old witch! Lizaveta Ivanovna, hey,

my beauty! open the door! Oh, damn them! Are they asleep or what?”



And again, enraged, he tugged with all his might a dozen times at

the bell. He must certainly be a man of authority and an intimate

acquaintance.



At this moment light hurried steps were heard not far off, on the

stairs. Someone else was approaching. Raskolnikov had not heard them at

first.



“You don’t say there’s no one at home,” the new-comer cried in a

cheerful, ringing voice, addressing the first visitor, who still went on

pulling the bell. “Good evening, Koch.”



“From his voice he must be quite young,” thought Raskolnikov.



“Who the devil can tell? I’ve almost broken the lock,” answered Koch.

“But how do you come to know me?”



“Why! The day before yesterday I beat you three times running at

billiards at Gambrinus’.”



“Oh!”



“So they are not at home? That’s queer. It’s awfully stupid though.

Where could the old woman have gone? I’ve come on business.”



“Yes; and I have business with her, too.”



“Well, what can we do? Go back, I suppose, Aie--aie! And I was hoping to

get some money!” cried the young man.



“We must give it up, of course, but what did she fix this time for? The

old witch fixed the time for me to come herself. It’s out of my way.

And where the devil she can have got to, I can’t make out. She sits here

from year’s end to year’s end, the old hag; her legs are bad and yet

here all of a sudden she is out for a walk!”



“Hadn’t we better ask the porter?”



“What?”



“Where she’s gone and when she’ll be back.”



“Hm.... Damn it all!... We might ask.... But you know she never does go

anywhere.”



And he once more tugged at the door-handle.



“Damn it all. There’s nothing to be done, we must go!”



“Stay!” cried the young man suddenly. “Do you see how the door shakes if

you pull it?”



“Well?”



“That shows it’s not locked, but fastened with the hook! Do you hear how

the hook clanks?”



“Well?”



“Why, don’t you see? That proves that one of them is at home. If they

were all out, they would have locked the door from the outside with the

key and not with the hook from inside. There, do you hear how the hook

is clanking? To fasten the hook on the inside they must be at home,

don’t you see? So there they are sitting inside and don’t open the

door!”



“Well! And so they must be!” cried Koch, astonished. “What are they

about in there?” And he began furiously shaking the door.



“Stay!” cried the young man again. “Don’t pull at it! There must be

something wrong.... Here, you’ve been ringing and pulling at the door

and still they don’t open! So either they’ve both fainted or...”



“What?”



“I tell you what. Let’s go fetch the porter, let him wake them up.”



“All right.”



Both were going down.



“Stay. You stop here while I run down for the porter.”



“What for?”



“Well, you’d better.”



“All right.”



“I’m studying the law you see! It’s evident, e-vi-dent there’s something

wrong here!” the young man cried hotly, and he ran downstairs.



Koch remained. Once more he softly touched the bell which gave one

tinkle, then gently, as though reflecting and looking about him, began

touching the door-handle pulling it and letting it go to make sure once

more that it was only fastened by the hook. Then puffing and panting he

bent down and began looking at the keyhole: but the key was in the lock

on the inside and so nothing could be seen.



Raskolnikov stood keeping tight hold of the axe. He was in a sort of

delirium. He was even making ready to fight when they should come in.

While they were knocking and talking together, the idea several times

occurred to him to end it all at once and shout to them through the

door. Now and then he was tempted to swear at them, to jeer at them,

while they could not open the door! “Only make haste!” was the thought

that flashed through his mind.



“But what the devil is he about?...” Time was passing, one minute, and

another--no one came. Koch began to be restless.



“What the devil?” he cried suddenly and in impatience deserting his

sentry duty, he, too, went down, hurrying and thumping with his heavy

boots on the stairs. The steps died away.



“Good heavens! What am I to do?”



Raskolnikov unfastened the hook, opened the door--there was no sound.

Abruptly, without any thought at all, he went out, closing the door as

thoroughly as he could, and went downstairs.



He had gone down three flights when he suddenly heard a loud voice

below--where could he go! There was nowhere to hide. He was just going

back to the flat.



“Hey there! Catch the brute!”



Somebody dashed out of a flat below, shouting, and rather fell than ran

down the stairs, bawling at the top of his voice.



“Mitka! Mitka! Mitka! Mitka! Mitka! Blast him!”



The shout ended in a shriek; the last sounds came from the yard; all was

still. But at the same instant several men talking loud and fast began

noisily mounting the stairs. There were three or four of them. He

distinguished the ringing voice of the young man. “Hey!”



Filled with despair he went straight to meet them, feeling “come what

must!” If they stopped him--all was lost; if they let him pass--all was

lost too; they would remember him. They were approaching; they were only

a flight from him--and suddenly deliverance! A few steps from him on the

right, there was an empty flat with the door wide open, the flat on the

second floor where the painters had been at work, and which, as though

for his benefit, they had just left. It was they, no doubt, who had just

run down, shouting. The floor had only just been painted, in the middle

of the room stood a pail and a broken pot with paint and brushes. In one

instant he had whisked in at the open door and hidden behind the wall

and only in the nick of time; they had already reached the landing.

Then they turned and went on up to the fourth floor, talking loudly. He

waited, went out on tiptoe and ran down the stairs.



No one was on the stairs, nor in the gateway. He passed quickly through

the gateway and turned to the left in the street.



He knew, he knew perfectly well that at that moment they were at the

flat, that they were greatly astonished at finding it unlocked, as

the door had just been fastened, that by now they were looking at the

bodies, that before another minute had passed they would guess and

completely realise that the murderer had just been there, and had

succeeded in hiding somewhere, slipping by them and escaping. They would

guess most likely that he had been in the empty flat, while they were

going upstairs. And meanwhile he dared not quicken his pace much, though

the next turning was still nearly a hundred yards away. “Should he

slip through some gateway and wait somewhere in an unknown street? No,

hopeless! Should he fling away the axe? Should he take a cab? Hopeless,

hopeless!”



At last he reached the turning. He turned down it more dead than alive.

Here he was half way to safety, and he understood it; it was less risky

because there was a great crowd of people, and he was lost in it like a

grain of sand. But all he had suffered had so weakened him that he could

scarcely move. Perspiration ran down him in drops, his neck was all wet.

“My word, he has been going it!” someone shouted at him when he came out

on the canal bank.



He was only dimly conscious of himself now, and the farther he went the

worse it was. He remembered however, that on coming out on to the canal

bank, he was alarmed at finding few people there and so being more

conspicuous, and he had thought of turning back. Though he was almost

falling from fatigue, he went a long way round so as to get home from

quite a different direction.



He was not fully conscious when he passed through the gateway of his

house! He was already on the staircase before he recollected the axe.

And yet he had a very grave problem before him, to put it back and to

escape observation as far as possible in doing so. He was of course

incapable of reflecting that it might perhaps be far better not to

restore the axe at all, but to drop it later on in somebody’s yard. But

it all happened fortunately, the door of the porter’s room was closed

but not locked, so that it seemed most likely that the porter was at

home. But he had so completely lost all power of reflection that he

walked straight to the door and opened it. If the porter had asked him,

“What do you want?” he would perhaps have simply handed him the axe. But

again the porter was not at home, and he succeeded in putting the axe

back under the bench, and even covering it with the chunk of wood as

before. He met no one, not a soul, afterwards on the way to his room;

the landlady’s door was shut. When he was in his room, he flung himself

on the sofa just as he was--he did not sleep, but sank into blank

forgetfulness. If anyone had come into his room then, he would have

jumped up at once and screamed. Scraps and shreds of thoughts were

simply swarming in his brain, but he could not catch at one, he could

not rest on one, in spite of all his efforts....









PART II