March 4

Today was just... a lot. Got pulled into a meeting at 9am that should have been an email (obviously) and then Derek basically threw me under the bus in front of the whole product team about the Q1 metrics being off. Like dude, I TOLD you the tracking was broken in January and you said it was fine?? But sure make me look incompetent, cool cool cool.

Idk I just feel like I'm spinning my wheels lately. I keep taking on extra stuff because I can't say no and then I'm working until 7pm and eating sad desk salads and for what. My review is next month and I already know they're gonna be like "meets expectations" which is corporate speak for "we're not giving you a raise."

Ugh. Sarah said I should start looking but the market is so bad rn. Maybe I'll update my LinkedIn this weekend. Or maybe I'll just lay on the couch and watch trash TV because honestly that sounds way better.

Need to remember to call mom back. She called twice today and I keep forgetting. Bad daughter energy.

Ok gonna try to sleep. Tomorrow will be better probably. Maybe.